A specific smell can trigger a strong memory — that much has been studied by science. It’s called the Proust phenomenon or an odor-evoked autobiographical memory. It’s that instance when you smell, say for example, pepperoni pizza and a memory from your childhood suddenly resurfaces. Personally, I have a lot of memories that suddenly flashes back whenever I smell something. Say for example, I’m putting on the Silka Papaya Lotion and I’m suddenly transported to my retreat when I was a senior in high school. Most of my memories though, I closely associate with the perfume I was wearing. I constantly change my perfume — I don’t think I have ever stuck to one for more than a year. Maybe because I’m a cheapskate who refuses to buy her own perfume or that whenever I do get to find one I’m willing to shell out some bucks on, I can’t seem to find any on hand (hi, Angel’s Breath).
So today, I thought, why not go down memory lane the unusual way? Here’s some of the scents that I’ve grown to love and the personal growth milestone it reminds me of.
Penshoppe’s Boy Dates Girl. It’s reminiscent of my sophomore highschool self. It was the time when I first started blogging on Tumblr — something that I will always be thankful for because it gave me an outlet to express everything and anything. I was still very young and I still had a lot to learn. I was still moving on from the first guy who ever toyed with my feelings. I hated myself then because I always found myself believing every shit he says even though I know I shouldn’t. Yes, I was naive once. Honestly though, if it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t learn how to be cautious. I know some people would say that when it comes to love you don’t have to be cautious but I personally think that being one did me good. I was still learning my way through life, and I still had so much to discover about myself. I was yet to let go of some of my inhibitions.
Dolce and Gabbana Light Blue. This was the first legit perfume that I’ve ever had. My mom gave it to me as a birthday present when I was on my last year in high school. And so it reminds me of that time when I felt like everything was about to end with a knowledge that something bigger was in store for me and my friends. I’d like to believe that this was the start of me starting to grow up. Relationship-wise, I was still admittedly naive but I’d like to think that I was better from when I was a sophomore.
Victoria’s Secret Very Sexy Dare. Crizzel gave this to me on my 17th birthday that we spent in Tagaytay (to mainly celebrate Marion’s 18th birthday). It will always be reminiscent of my first year in college — my first year out in the jungle that is Manila. It was the time that I was really starting to come out of my shell, forming relationships (friendship) that had lasted me up until now. Everything about college is encapsulated in that bottle. It reminds me of my first college trip, my first college recollection, my first kiss (lolz~), drunken nights, first college fling (another lolz~), and the first time I ever lived away from home — basically all my firsts in college. Inevitably though, it also reminds me of my first (for lack of a better or more appropriate term) heartbreak [in college]. It got me crying all night but it was one that I was very thankful to have had because if it weren’t for that guy, I may not have learned how to stand up for myself and love myself better. It smells of adventure, of firsts, and of reinvention.
Angel’s Breath. This cologne was very popular when I was still a little girl. And during my second year in college, I got very excited to see a bottle again (as I have not seen one in a very long time) so I quickly bought one. This was the time that I was learning how to be comfortable being alone with myself, to take care of myself better, and not letting myself catch feelings. Although a scent coming from my childhood (of chocolate milk cartons, mini cupcakes, and me sneaking to drink milk out of my feeding bottle under the table at school when I was in kindergarten HAHA), I tie it much more to the time that I had allowed myself to finally come out of my shell and stand up on my own. #Independent
Victoria’s Secret Secret Charm. Given to me by my uncle, this one reminds me of a time that I have finally established who I am and who I want to be. I was finally able to identify myself — finding out my strengths and realizing my weaknesses. It also reminds me of the struggle of being a junior in college. It was pretty challenging, so much was changing and it really tested my ability to go through two days without sleep. This was also the year the time that I was able to make some new friends (hello, 3CPS).
Versace Bright Crystal. Independence, struggles, making it, and getting out — these are the things this perfume reminds me of. It is reminiscent of my fears as I was choosing a thesis topic that would have an impact, of frustration with my internship, of drunken nights after exams, of insane amounts of coffee drank, of crazy afternoons just laughing and laughing, of binge eating with my friends, of sleepovers just to finish our own respective thesis, of deadlines being too deadly, of thesis proposal defense, of final thesis defense, of our overnight retreat, of my last exams in college, of people I never want to forget, of being late to graduation practices, of learning I get to graduate with a latin honor, of finally graduating, and of everything that has made me into the person that I am now. It binds all that I have learned throughout college, and while I didn’t come out unscathed (I don’t think anyone ever really does), I certainly got out being more sure of myself than I have ever been before. This scent will always be a reminder of my mistakes (hehe~), and more than anything, my triumphs.
I now have a new scent (given to me by my sister, thanks ate), and I can’t wait to make new memories with it. What’s your favorite scent and what does it remind you of? 🙂